14Your Ex Lover is Dead
IDK what it is but sometimes I get the feeling that my ex boyfriend is the only one who will love me the way I wanted; but with that unconditional, unrelenting love comes a doormat and sometimes I just need someone a bit tougher, or rougher around the edges. I’m sure if financial instability wasn’t an issue we would still be together, because we have a tremendous amount of fun together. I would have had to resign myself to the fact you can’t have everything in one person and continue on in an almost perfect union.
Is it delusional to believe you can have it all in one mate or is it delusional not to believe you can?
Any who, the point is sometimes I miss having a boyfriend. Not to discount my new adventures but that certainty of his affections make me feel secure, warm, and fuzzy.
“I can’t quit you!” Is what I find myself saying when we try to carry on platonically. It’s sick and I don’t want to be in the post-relationship limbo where you still hook up but date other people and get upset that your with new people. It’s gross. Can we be mature adults and leave each other alone, until we actually can be platonic friends?
I just want to be done with him.
